Letter to Follow-up Quai Boyfriend Question?
Question by Kevin S: Letter to Follow-up Quai Boyfriend Question?
If you read my previous question. What do you think of this letter?
“Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for
hands that are not there”-Otomo No Yakamochi
Dear Christopher,
Finding myself with a busy day I took the morning and now afternoon
off to write you this letter. Because I felt it necessary and I told
you that it would be delivered today. You will find it to be
straight-forward, with exposed emotions, respectful, sincerely-honest,
and humble. There is no psychological undertones here of faux
confidence or manipulative wording within the body of this text.
Realizing that confidence is more attractive than illuminating
feelings it is more appealing for a letter of this type. Me being a
straight-forward person I wrote a complete understand of myself,
actions, and resolve if possible. As the threads of this conflict are
bound by mistakes I am trying with these words to correct them and in
time I hope you will see in action.
1. I did the ground-tour to help your mom, because she means so much
to you. Never did I try to befriend your mother to get to you. As it
could appear that way, it is not. My relationship with your mother
came from me enjoying talking with her and not having a supportive
mother. Christopher, my mom handed out Xanex during a family
conversation while I was home. Ruth told me that she never could
understand “my world” and that I would never be able to make her
proud. It is nice to have an ego boost from someone as successful and
driven as myself. It was my own vicarious way of finding support for
a very demanding career and life.
2. Never did I dishonor your privacy and if I said anything I should
not have it was not purposeful, but a simple mistake.
3. Always I went back and forth trying to leave and pulling myself
back. The repeat of conversation was instilled within me by
Stephanie. I never meant it to manipulate you. While on this topic
whatever seemed manipulate ways never was such. It was me trying to
make sense of a very difficult situation for myself. The mistake was
I did not edit the thought process in a sterile model. What now seems
is I brought you along for the ride? When in actuality I was just
trying to find a safe common ground. Then I got frustrated and the
hamster wheel in my head, no I don’t have rodents in my brain, kept
moving faster for answers. But there never was one that made sense.
Perhaps fear of the past kept one foot in and one hand on the door
knob.
4. I am not perfect and I make mistakes. For those I am sorry, but
they are not as complex as you would think them to be. The anger text
was me just having enough frustration and no control. This is so not
me. Looking back I wish I had been more quiet and refrained. Lesson
learned in this learning curve of life. But I don’t have a time
machine. So it happened and I am sorry if it caused you distress or
loose a follicle of hair.
5. Further explanation is from outside observation it would seem
manipulative behavior. Especially with “text fight” I think I am
cancelling text. Note to self call Sprint. Little nervous and this
is hard to write. It is like this I think sub-concisely I used the
back and forth as a control factor. But I never meant it to be. I am
very sorry for this.
6. What could be easily mistaken as jealousy was two things. First, it
was to get a better understanding of you. That is why I asked you
questions in that letter. Second, was protection. The pending
Facebook question was to see why “you said you had no gay friends” yet
did you have this one. I was trying to understand you. Clearly, I
should not have tried. I am so proud you have so many friends and
like mine I appreciate their qualities they bring forth. My take on
jealousy is a negative energy. This is where kI say whatever everyone
should have freedom to have fun. For that is what life is about to
have a helluva good time without limitations. Don’t you think?
If this letter seems to be getting intense, its not, but merely me
vomiting thoughts of a somewhat organized letter to give myself
closure and you understanding. People say wait it out blah, blah,
blah. It is I who takes the road less traveled and let you know the
way it is. This is written not as a pitch letter or a plea to come
back into my life. It is to allow growth and understanding of mankind
at large and what we learned benefits us both. At least I think so.
When I met you at the corner in Union Square, side note a smile just
came to my face, I was like he is good looking now let’s see if he
talks and how he acts. When I looked at your beautiful blue eyes at
Subway with my foot long and your 6 inch sub feelings began to emerge.
I felt something and then when I kissed you I had this feeling in my
heart. Yes, I am metaphysical and very in tune and touch with my
emotions. But it was kismet to m
Best answer:
Answer by Stephan P
Way to long, spit it out honestly. Not that I read your letter but you think u can summerize your feelings in a text message size format. Honest you have to understand guys dont think like this. I mean damn it doesnt even fit into the yahoo question.
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